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Forgiving The Unforgivable

To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you~Lewis B. Smedes

 

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True forgiveness is a gift that cannot be doled out like mints in the waiting room of a doctor’s office. Instead forgiveness is a conscious choice to clear pain, hurt, disappointment and anger out of your heart so that love takes its place. It is a not about the recipient of such grace, but rather an act of self-love. No heart suffers more than the one unable to forgive. It is, and should be, coveted by those who understand its healing power.

Yet as much as we understand its necessity to heal, we often resist forgiving others. Why? Some people erroneously think of forgiveness as a “get out of jail free” pass to those who have caused immeasurable pain. Not true. Some people think of forgiveness as being synonymous with forgetting the damage caused by hurtful and harmful acts. Not true. Neither of these are valid for true forgiveness. To the contrary, forgiveness is the gateway to an emotional freedom from those people and experiences that have wounded us.

We cannot begin to negotiate a new normal and transform our experiences without first forgiving. Regardless of the relationship that beckons your forgiveness, it is critical in order to move on without dragging forward the hurt from your past. Trust me, I know that there are some things that may seem unforgivable. There are some things that are so egregious and so heinous that we might wonder, is forgiveness really possible? I can tell you firsthand that even the most heinous acts of betrayal can be forgiven. The best way for me to illuminate this point is through my personal experience up close and personal with forgiveness.

148968_4024915181469_2058401207_nMy personal story of forgiveness:
I grew up with parents who struggled with their own identities, including what it meant to be married and to be parents. My mom was only 16 years old when she had me and my dad was 21. They were young and ill-equipped for the life they had thrown themselves into. They, way too often, took their frustrations and ignorance of life out on me and my brother.

My mother was angry and miserable with teenage parenthood and married life.  She married my father because she was forced, but she didn’t love him. She projected that misery on us with an unmatched venomous tongue. As such, she was verbally and emotionally abusive. She called me names repeatedly and consistently enough that I was traumatized and my self-esteem was gravely impacted. “Fat ass” was often at the top of her name-calling list.

Her anger was only matched by the physical fury that would rain down on us if she got mad enough. I remember being so terrified of her that when she walked passed us and simply reached for the phone we would jump in fear that she would hit us. You see, her anger often had no rhyme or reason. But the most memorable whipping was after my brother and I skipped school. We paid for that childhood stupidity with the lashes of an extension cord on our naked skin. I remember thinking that she must be trying to kill me. It seemed to go on forever. While the physical scars eventually healed, the terror left an indelible mark on my psyche and soul.

Now if the physical and emotional abuse wasn’t enough, my father certainly held his own brand of insidiousness. I was sexually molested by my father until about 12 or 13 years of age. I was never clear on the exact beginning and ending because I blocked so much of this horror from my conscious mind in order to survive. What I do remember very clearly is feeling guilty and loathing my body for growing up faster than my years. It was a very confusing time for me and I turned my hatred inward for many years.

Needless to say that this history of abuse could very easily go in the category of unforgivable. And I tried that for years, which led me to an eating disorder, promiscuity, a love affair with alcohol and attempted suicide. Not forgiving them, obviously, wasn’t working for me. More than that it was killing me slowly. In my mid-20s I made a different choice. I chose to search my heart for what it would take to forgive them and heal myself. That journey has taken me many places, including therapy, self confrontation, and an ultimate personal revolution!

My father had unfortunately died before I could confront him with my truth. So I wrote him a heartfelt letter that took six months to finish. I poured my heart and soul into that letter. I took out a picture of him and read the letter to his spirit, unleashing my anger, hurt, confusion and rage–without censorship.  I do not believe that we die and return to spirit with the same human flaws, so I know he heard and received my message. Then I burned the letter. I had released him and it. I had forgiven him.

My mother was a whole other beautiful experience. I confronted my mother with my truth. She listened with an open heart. Then the most amazing thing happened. She said, “I don’t remember everything, but I know I was angry and I believe you… I am so sorry.” We have spent subsequent years falling in love with the women we had both become. We have unveiled our souls together. I began to see her as not just my mother, but as a woman just like me. A woman who made mistakes; a woman who was scared, hurt and confused. I saw her as a flawed human being worthy of forgiveness. Today, we are best friends and I love her deeply. I have forgiven her.

Forgiving my parents has helped me restore the good memories of my childhood.  I was forgivenessable to readily recall times with both of them that were fun, educational and joyous.  I don’t believe this would have happened had I not sought forgiveness first.

But the most challenging aspect of my forgiveness journey has been the road to forgiving myself.  I have forgiven myself for making choices that did not serve me, but rather degraded my soul. And because I have forgiven myself, I have been able to release the shame and guilt. I am not done with that yet, but each year it has gotten easier and, most definitely, better. I have extended grace and compassion to myself for not knowing how to make better choices for myself.  As they say, when we know better we can do better.

So now that you’ve witnessed my story, my hope is that you walk away believing that forgiveness is possible.I’d like to offer you some practical tips for forgiving the unforgivable in your life:

  • You can not embrace forgiveness if you are stuffing the emotions that must precede forgiveness, such as anger, hurt, etc. Stuffing your emotions and pretending not to hurt is not the same as forgiving. This is a futile exercise in denial that will undoubtedly show up somewhere else in your life. Let it go and know that God is big enough to handle ALL of your emotions.
  • Allow your pain to be witnessed by someone. This honors your heart. This validation of your pain is critical if you are to embrace forgiveness. Having your pain witnessed is also a way of releasing the shame; Shame is a barrier to forgiveness. It is an insidious dis-ease of the soul.
  • Remember that forgiving does not mean forgetting. As such, you may decide that the perpetrators of your betrayal do not need to be in your life. Only you can decide what is right and healthy for you. Sometimes boundaries are actually the most loving thing you can do for your self.
  • Don’t rush forgiveness. It is not a race to see how quickly you can forgive. Forgiveness must be genuine and come from a place of authenticity. The only one who is fooled by a disingenuous approach to forgiveness is one who does not truly understand its purpose.
  • Be sure to put your self on your list of people to forgive. Too often, as women, we extend more compassion to others than we are willing to extend to ourselves. The guilt we carry weighs us down and permeates our lives. We must let it go, plain and simple!
  • Be willing to seek professional support as you seek to forgive the unforgivable. Whether it is your romantic relationship, friendships, or your family, forgiveness is worth the time and effort it requires. And sometimes the pain is so deep that we need support to navigate through it to the other side of love.

forgiveness4It is my deepest hope that this article, my truth, and my heart has been of some help to you as you embrace a journey to forgive and heal. I know that if it is possible for me, then it is possible for you– for we are one heart.  I wish you great success as you embark on your journey to Create more LOVE IN YOUR LIFE!

 

 

 

Nya Akoma,
Imani Evans, MA

www.createloveforwomen.com
www.surviving2thriving.org
http://selfcarefordynamicwomen.blogspot.com
EMAIL: imani@surviving2thriving.org
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Facts Everyone Should Know About IPV, SV & Stalking

The National Intimate Partner and Sexual Violence Survey (NISVS) infographic

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Masculinity Misunderstood: The Conversation Continues

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“It is imperative for us, the LGBTQ community, to begin a serious dialogue and plan of  action to redefine masculinity for ourselves. The affects of a culture that has been saturated with hyper-masculinity and misogyny are deeply dangerous. It has distorted everything from the way we love, build families and navigate our spaces. It jeopardizes the more than gender consciousness…it violates our very humanity.” –Imani Evans

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A Femme’s View On Studs by Imani Evans

16007_464981633538682_1860013412_nAs a self-proclaimed femme lesbian, I adore masculine identified women.  First let me state my disclaimers: 1) I do not believe that labels define us, nor should they box us into dating only one type of woman.  I think if you are femme and you like other femmes, or if you are a stud and you like other studs, more power to you (in my 60’s voice), and if you have no label and feel free to date whomever you choose–I support you! 2)The opinions stated in this article are mine and mine alone.  I am simply expressing my thoughts on this subject and they are not to represent the philosophy of any group of lesbians.  Now that I have put all of my politically-conscious sisters at ease, I would love to share my thoughts with you in hopes that you might share yours with me too.
Stud/Butch/AG/Boi…by whatever name you call it, I certainly find myself attracted to that energy.  However I do not limit myself.  I have been in a relationship with another femme woman, and I loved her.  I would even go as far as to say that I was the more masculine energy in that relationship. For those of you who know me, you can stop giggling now! 🙂 It is true! I am, what I acknowledge to be, an aggressive-femme.  I also believe that gender expression is far more fluid than we lend it credence. For that matter gender identity, a gender role and sexual orientation are not the same thing.  Let’s explore this for more clarity:

GENDER IDENTITY: “Gender identity is defined as a personal conception of oneself as male or female (or rarely, both or neither). This concept is intimately related to the concept of gender role, which is defined as the outward manifestations of personality that reflect the gender identity. Gender identity, in nearly all instances, is self-identified, as a result of a combination of inherent and extrinsic or environmental factors…”  Quoted from Medscape.com

GENDER ROLE: “A gender role is a set of social and behavioral norms that are generally considered appropriate for either a man or a woman in a social or interpersonal relationship. There are differences of opinion as to which observed differences in behavior and personality between genders are entirely due to innate personality of the person and which are due to cultural or social factors, and are therefore the product of socialization, or to what extent gender differences are due to biological and physiological differences. Gender roles differ according to cultural-historical context, and while most cultures express two genders, some express more…” Quoted from Wikipedia

SEXUAL ORIENTATION:  “Sexual orientation refers to an enduring pattern of emotional, romantic, and/or sexual attractions to men, women, or both sexes. Sexual orientation also refers to a person’s sense of identity based on those attractions, related behaviors, and membership in a community of others who share those attractions. Research over several decades has demonstrated that sexual orientation ranges along a continuum, from exclusive attraction to the other sex to exclusive attraction to the same sex. However, sexual orientation is usually discussed in terms of three categories: heterosexual (having emotional, romantic, or sexual attractions to members of the other sex), gay/lesbian (having emotional, romantic, or sexual attractions to members of one’s own sex), and bisexual (having emotional, romantic, or sexual attractions to both men and women). This range of behaviors and attractions has been described in various cultures and nations throughout the world.” Quoted from the American Psychological Association

 

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Masculinity Misunderstood: A Community Conversation

This event is presented in recognition of Women’s Herstory Month. It is a Women Healing Women Event offered in collaboration with Unity Fellowship Church of Greater Atlanta.

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The Self-Defense Workshop was unforgettable and very informative!

This was an amazing Self Defense Workshop for women-only, being offered by Women Healing Women in collaboration with the Little 5 Points Center for Arts & Community.

The workshop was for women only. Every woman needs this information. Much of the workshop was dedicated to assault avoidance, but it also included hands-on practice. It was facilitated by national defense expert Nathan Nowak. Nathan is the whole package. He presents with a wonderful balance of humor, compassion and a determination to empower women to greater safety. We will be working with him again in the future. The video includes pictures, video clips, and video testimonials. Stay tuned for the next one.

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Nathan J. Nowak
President, CEO
Professional Training Systems, Inc.
Trinity Fitness
404.966.5425
nathan@trinitybody.com
www.trinitybody.com
www.trinitybody.com/blog/
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Self-Defense Workshop for Women Only – OCTOBER 16, 2014

Presented in collaboration with
Women Healing Women & L5PCAC

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In recognition of Domestic Violence Awareness Month, we are offering a series of wonderful programs. This amazing seminar will be presented by national fitness expert, trainer and speaker, Nathan Nowak of Professional Training Systems, Inc.

**According to statistics, a woman who is only 21 years of age has a 25 percent risk of suffering violent crime in her life.
*1 in 6 girls will become a victim of rape or attempted rape by age 18.
*Learn vital tips and techniques to protect yourself
Reclaim Your Power  Feel Empowered!

Bring a friend and/or your daughter and come increase your personal protection awareness. Wear comfortable clothing…be prepared to have fun, learn and get valuable information that just might save your life!
This event is sponsored by Women Healing Women in partnership with the Little 5 Points Center for Arts & Community (formerly Little 5 Points Community Center.

RESERVED YOUR SPOT WITH A $10 DONATION TODAY OR Make your donation on site.

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Nathan J. Nowak
President, CEO
Professional Training Systems, Inc.
Trinity Fitness
404.966.5425
nathan@trinitybody.com
www.trinitybody.com
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A Reaction to Ray & Janay Rice: Michelle Dowell-Vest

Michelle Dowell-Vest, Writer/Blogger

If you are like me, yesterday your morning social media blitz gave you the TMZ video of Ray Rice hitting his then fiancé,  now wife,  with a blow that not only crushed her face but his career and quite possibly her spirit.   I watched in horror as he picked her up, tried to remove her from the elevator, realize he didn’t know know what to do with her limp body only to drop her and close the elevator door.   A few minutes later the door opens again,  he drags her half way out then drops her in the door so that it works as a prop to keep the elevator door open.  He was met by a random man.   We can’t hear audio so it’s tough to know what was said or how he explained what looked like a dead woman hanging half way out of the elevator.  I would love to talk to that man.  I would like to know what he saw and thought at that moment.  Was he shocked?  Did he want to help?  Did he recognize Ray Rice as a Raven’s Running Back?  Because it didn’t seem like he was that concerned.

That image is burned into my mind.  Janay Rice.  Laying there, limp, her skirt almost above her waist, ignoring her modesty as if she were not worthy of it.  I admit I watched that video a few times…

Read the full article on Self-Care for Dynamic Women    (A program of Women Healing Women)

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October 6 – CONFRONTING “EVERYDAY” VIOLENCE…What do we do with the pain?

We are proud to have licensed clinical social worker and Soul Doula, Vanessa Jackson Joining us for this critical discussion on Confronting Everyday Violence. She will open up the conversation with a brief talk about power dynamics and power wounds…Where do the come from? How do we heal them? We, at Women Healing Women, believe that violence is an attack of the mind body and soul. Learning the ways in which it affects us on all levels, discovering how we survive & thrive against the odds, and identifying how to use our strength to empower others are indeed gateways to the restoration of power, individually and communally! Reclaim YOUR power and join us on October 6th. Nya Akoma!

MORE ABOUT VANESSA…

Vanessa JacksonI am an activist with a passion for women’s health and community building. This interest led me to pursue a masters degree in social work with a focus on women’s issues and social and economic development at Washington University, George Warren Brown School of Social Work. Over the years, I embarked on my own spiritual journey which allowed me to honor many spiritual traditions and to be present for others who are trying to live spirit-centered lives in a world which does not always honor the spiritual life. As I negotiated the inevitable crises in my own life, I noticed that I found it most helpful and healing to take integrated approach that explored the emotional, intellectual, spiritual and community aspects of my “problems”. Over time, it made sense for me to offer this perspective to individuals and families who came to me for consultation. I sought additional training in reiki, energy healing, Emotional Freedom Techniques (EFT), crystal healing and aromatherapy to add to my clinical training in family systems, narrative therapy and power dynamics. I was once asked about my “theoretical orientation” and my heart-centered response was “My theoretical orientation is magic. It is my goal to fully express the magic in me and to invite out the magic in you!”

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